I just don't believe this. It will be diffrent this time. It will. It will. It won't happen. We're to strong. We won't leave...

[When he is aware that he already turned on the PCD Beyond starts talking in his normal voice. Only that it is shaking this time.]

Today is my official death day at home. What a fitting time to say goodbye.

My time here ( Read more... )

So Cissnei and Charmy are gone, too...

[Beyond sounds tired. Very tired.]

I'll have to learn how to take care of flowers. Could someone teach me once the snow stops?

Sometimes I wonder how they choose who is going to leave this world...

( [Private to self//Unhackable] )

I feel, like this world has become a darker place again. With Tamaki gone the last sparcle of unbeliavable cuteness is gone too ( Read more... )

[Beyond is standing in his room. Gods, how happy he was to be back. The event was finally over. He is just nailing a Wara Ningyo (little japanese straw doll) at the wall just over his bed. There are a few other Wara Ningyo lieing on the floor. After finishing his work he turns around to the PCD]

It's good to be back in my own room. And since this ( Read more... )

[This post was filtered to private, but hackable, about  5 minutes after coming up]

[Beyond is standing in the garden. He still wears a lot of bandages, but he looks better. Just in his eyes it is. The fight, the endless fight he is fighting. Against the world, against L, against his hate, against his love and finally against himself. He knows he ( Read more... )

[The feed starts with Beyond sitting in his bed. His body is wrapped in several bandages. In the corner of the video you can see Soujiro sitting next to the bed]

There is only one thing I'd like to say. I'm alive, so stop worrying. Just in case anyone did. I'll be fine in a few days I think.
If anyone wants to visit me for whatever reason... I'm at ( Read more... )

[Beyond is sitting on his bed lazily. He may be trying to look sexy, but it doesn't look forced. Beyond knows he looks good and he just acts like it. In his hand is a slightly damaged lookin copy of "Death Note: Another Note - Los Angeles BB Renzoku Satsujin Jiken". Japanese speaking characters will now this means "Los Angeles BB Serial Murder ( Read more... )

[B is sitting on his bed, his head put back, looking completly relaxed. He isn't though, but he feels better after having a nice meeting with Soujiro. He grins slightly. Beyond had no intrest in making this video private. Why would he? There was no use in it]

Hey, Seta Soujiro-kun!

I hope you wear the clothes, I gave to you, often! They suit you very ( Read more... )

[The feed starts showing Beyons standing in front of the camera. He looks totally fine again, even though his eyes are still slightly red from crying. This is not because he really is fine. It's just because he put all the masks he did not use, back on. He's acting now, not showing his emotions anymore. He tried out something new and got hurt, now ( Read more... )

[Beyond sounds weak. Desperate. And a little bit angry]

I need help. Seriously. Anyone here who is used to social problems and those things? Please contact me...

[A pause]

I knew it would hurt. I knew it. ... Even if I didn't expect a situation like this.  I knew it was wrong. ...

Oh how stupid have I been? I thought the pain would be over with the ( Read more... )